Sins Run Rampant

Sometimes things change...

2008-09-28T13:33:11Z

So to keep up to date on things, I moved back to Florida back in September of last year. I moved back and through my friend, who I will leave anonymous and call Fred(mainly because it isn't anyone's business who the person really is nor do I want people forming an opinion about him because of me), but through him, helped me get a promotion as SGA at Gamestop(third in charge, FYI).

Things were going pretty well work wise, and I got to chill with Jo again, catching up and such. I hung out with my buddy Jeremy too from time to time. The only problem is my friend(Fred as we'll call him :P), decided he was mad at me, one for hanging out with his ex for a few hours between two days, which he accused it being 24/7, and apparently I did something else that lost his trust. To this day, I don't know what it is, but he made it pretty apparent I choose between his friendship or his ex's. I felt it was total bs, because I shouldn't have to do anything just to appease someone, and I made that abundantly clear.

So it was after that, he decided we should just be work buddies, nothing more, not buddy buddy good friends we used to be, but I just dealt with it. It sucked and still does to this day he decided that, but everything happens. So it doesn't get any easier after that, I talked to his gf here and there online, and on one particular day, after I get done talking to her, I head over to Jo's. Jo's reaction right away is "What the heck man?! I told you not to talk to her." and such, and then he was all like "Why in the heck were you yelling at his gf about him yelling at his ex today?!" After I hear this, I'm lost as to any other and reply with a "What are you talking about?" Pretty much to sum it up easy, to this day I believe his gf told bs just to piss on Fred and my relationship, what was left of it anyways. So I pulled him aside at work the next day, told him how everything was, and that he could either believe me, or not. I'd like to say he believed me, but I'm pretty sure you can guess that just wasn't the case.

So moving back, one of the toughest things to deal with, was losing a valued friendship. But just because this happened, I wouldn't let me keep it down, another thing I had mentioned to him, which leads into my next blog. It'll either consist of my friend Jeremy Luongo getting married, or my dedication and hard work into my job. Either way, for whoever reads, hopefully you appreciate my little stories and learning about some of my experiences. :)

"What a crazy happenstance!"

2008-09-14T02:34:50Z

So lately life has had its ups and downs in the past two years since I've written into this thing. Since then I've gotten my license, a car, I moved to Vermont for a half year, had to deal with my sister divorcing her 2nd husband, she left him for another guy. This is pretty much what happened here.....

Pretty much with that, I moved to Vermont in March of 2007, just wanting to try something different, and I wanted to be out of my parents house, ya know? So I moved up north, and to be honest, it was downright depressing. I only knew the people my sister and her husband at the time, Matt, knew. So I'd chill with them and such, but mainly just worked at Gamestop. So that consisted of my life, it was hard to get to know people, because I didn't know too many people, other than the few from work. I met some people during my stay there, don't get me wrong. But as I said before, the whole fiasco happened with my sister, and I felt she was in the wrong. I had a choice to move somewhere else in Vermont, but I just moved in not even 2 months, so I wasn't going to move. So it was myself, Matt, and another buddy of ours. Things went alright for awhile, I was working at Gamestop and Payless Shoes at the time, while babysitting and cleaning houses with my sister for some extra cash, whatever I could to pay the bills, and get food on the table.

I ran into someone I had known for quite some time online, all that such, things were going pretty well overall there, hung out all the time, got close, that whole thing. Ended up we got closer than what you'd expect, and afterwards, the next night visiting, I have the lovely joy of finding out she had a boyfriend she didn't tell me about.....yeah, not so good. So that totally blew and I'm lucky to not have gotten my ass kicked, but shit happens I guess.

With that happening, down the line, Matt goes missing. My roomate and I, as well as one of my best friends to this day, Rachel, are worried sick and are checking the streets for him and everything. We ended up finding him, but he ran off again. The thing is he used to be addicted to coke and all that such, and had gotten addicted again, something I found out later on being one of the many reasons my sister left him. So my roommate finds out there has been money missing too at the store, and it is all being pointed at in Matt's direction. With this all happening, the roommate moved out already, sick and tired of all this crap going on, while at the same time, people kept driving by the house and knocking at the door late at night. I wasn't stupid, Matt owed some drug dealers money, so I tended to keep myself well hidden, knowing that when drug dealers want something, they'll do anything to get it, no matter who gets hurt.

With all this continuing, I ended up having to call my mom, and she said her and my stepdad would come and get me and we could all drive back together. So I left the house, and stayed with my sister and her boyfriend until I up and left that place. It was a lot of trying times, but I grew hugely in the process. Other things I hadn't mentioned during all this, is $800 worth of my stuff got sold for crack, and I had to deal with check fraud, definitely not the best experience. So that is pretty much what sums up my time in Vermont. I gained some great friends, and learned sometimes life will shit on you, but it helped make me stronger, and into who I am now.

Next post will be on my return to Florida, the Sunshine State. :P

Wow....

2008-09-13T07:03:35Z

I haven't been here in ages and I just felt like writing a random message. :) Can't believe it has been more than two years since I've used this. *mouth drops open* Anyways, if anyone reads this anymore, ask for an update, I'll give you one.

This reminds me of the past....

2006-06-24T05:49:05Z

Till I drive you away.
I know what you'll say,
You'll say ohhhh.
Someone you know.

But I promise you this.
I'll always look out for you.
Yeah that's what I'll do.

Say I----------
I say I----------

My heart is yours.
See that I'll hold on, too.
Yeah that's what I'll do.

But I know I was strong,
I won't let you down.
No oh will you ever be so lonely.

Said I---------
Cry out----------
I saw sparks.

Yeah I saw sparks.
And I saw sparks.
Yeah I saw sparks.

"God Himself Did Make Us Into Corresponding Shapes Like Puzzle Pieces From The Clay"

2006-03-03T04:08:25Z

And tonight there was a sudden smile that swept my face. Can't wait till this weekend even more now. Best news since um, I don't even know when. I'm happy/excited about this though. :)

This day was definitely a tough one....

2006-03-01T03:02:11Z

This is going to be so hard to go through.

But finally, there's closure in a part of my life. I can slowly start to move on.

Time After Time....

2006-03-01T02:00:21Z

Life is an odd thing. I'm lost as to what to do now. There's a path I just can't see it. How often is it that that happens to all of us? I'm sure within time things will clear up and the road will be much clearer.

A big/huge thanks for everyone who has been worried, cared, or been there for me through all this. It means a lot to me. I'm glad to know I have friends in all sorts of places.

In other news, I decided not to sleep last night. Too much on my mind, and I had inventory at 4:15 in the morning at Movie Gallery, so why not stay up? Surprisingly, I'm still not tired yet, and it amazes me. We'll see how long this'll last.

I'm at Jo's right now and I'm staying the night. It's been fun and it's nice hanging out with him more. I work tomorrow night though, which is the suck. Meh, until next time... Ciao.

The best way to express my pain is through poetry, so enjoy....

2006-02-28T05:18:33Z

The pain inside,
It coincides,
With the hurt I feel just sitting.
2-28-06:Written By Michael Agri

'Painfully Stung'

And it makes me think,
How much this stinks,
That I have to sit here waiting.

Lost for words,
Tangled up like cords,
My heart feels just like that.

And as time goes,
Things within time will flow,
But for now my heart's simply aching.

I'm lost as to what will happen now,
Or as to the why, when, what, or how?
But I'll just have to keep on moving.

And this will conclude the saddest day,
And hoping this pain will one day fade.
Where time will come and this hurt will go,
But for now it seems to go so slow.

And this is my life...

2006-02-27T00:58:29Z

I'm lost for words... how depressing. This day hurts too much.

When will this end?!

2006-01-10T05:06:00Z

I'm so tired of this drama and selfishness in the world. And just to let everyone know, this isn't directed to just one person, it's directed towards everyone.

Stars....

2006-01-06T05:11:40Z

Giving love is the best feeling in the world. And my love is to my girlfriend. Baby, I love you. :)

The ramifications of the year called 2005.....

2006-01-04T06:04:14Z

Oh how I miss you livejournal. Heh.

I've been working my butt off like crazy. The year of 2005, the good things in life are right here....
Good Things:
1.My girlfriend, Angie. I'm in love. :)
2.Great friends, from the ones close to me to those far
3.People I can depend on, work related or friends
4.Memories of the past that make me realize I miss some of my old friends I haven't seen in forever.
5.Money so I can get out of debt.
6.Motivation for a future.
7.Stronger friendships.....as in to Ricky, the long friendship of Jo, and the oddness that is Jon.
8.Summertime in Maryland.
9.Realizing I need to get out of Vero.
10.Memories of the now.
11.Finally letting go of the fact that my dad isn't much of a good person, or a dad at that, and breaking contact with him.

Bad Things of 2005:
1.Being away from my sweetheart.
2.Friendships being shaky, from new friends to old.
3.Getting in debt.
4.Not thinking about my life or future.
5.Missing some old friends.
6.The stupidity is some peoples decisions.
7.Losing the strength in some friendships.
8.Losing focus on my love for wrestling.
9.Pondering on decisions of the past.

Things to ponder in 2006:
1.Getting out of Vero.
2.Money, and staying out of debt.
3.Reforming old friendships. I think some people realize I miss talking to them.
4.Realizing if I'm a hypocrite about some things, or just very bad at making decisions.
5.Being more responsible.
6.It's time to grow up and get a license.
7.It's time to grow up and go to college.
8.My mom, sister, and cousin are all going to get married this year. So many weddings!
9.Am I really sure I want kids in my future?

This past year has been crazy, and has had it's ups and downs. For the most part, it was good, and it was bad. The good outweighs the bad more than ever, and this year will get even better. I look forward to this. So I say bring it on. :)

blindbysins @ 2005-12-07T23:08:00

2005-12-08T04:42:05Z

X-Men 3! It's time for an update. A time for change. In this post I'll just show you pictures of the new X-Men 3 movie due in May. Enjoy!

Juggernaught! Stacy X! Callisto! Pyro! JEAN?!

Storm has better hair finally! And Beast! YES! :)

Good ol' Rogue. Her white streak is getting longer

Moira Mactaggart, Beast, Colossus, Kitty, Bobby and Rogue at a funeral?! Who dies? Well, if you're a fan, after mentioning the first person you should know who.

Yes, that is Wolverine being thrown by Colossus. Fastball special! :)

Wolverine and Storm up front. Followed by Colossus, Rogue, Iceman, and Shadowcat. :)

Angel!

:(

2005-12-01T04:37:55Z

Tears shouldn't flow the way they should.

Doopedoopdo.....

2005-11-25T05:53:31Z

My neck aches in so much pain. Why won't this feeling go away? I can't even lay down in peace. I have no idea what I did(I didnt do anything really hard working today), so I'm clueless on why it's throbbing in pain. I really hope this feeling will go away.

In other news, Happy late Turkey Day!

I had to work today, it kinda sucked, but meh. I got a wireless controller for the PS2 since my old controller broke sadly, so this'll do for now. I like wireless!

So, I rented Sky High tonight and watched it twice already. SO GOOD! I love it! :)

I miss my Angie. I love her so. I would love to just cuddle up in her arms right now.

I'm random and yeah, blah. I feel sorta grumpy and my neck isn't helping things right now. This is so annoying. I'm going to bed because I work 8-1, then 4-9. Bye everyone, until next time. Ciao.

Something to lighten the mood.....

2005-11-17T06:08:47Z

Well, this has been a depressing week in ways, but good in others, so since the last few posts have been quite depressing, I'll start with saying I bought Smackdown Vs Raw 2006. Great game, and the best of the series to me. Very fun to play, and everything is just cool. I used Eddie Guerrero in Season Mode on the Smackdown! side, and made sure he won the title. A little tribute I guess you could say.

Got the Bret Hart dvd too, but haven't watched it. Man, what am I doing here?! Time to play the game, and watch the movie! Here's a treat to Astonishing X-Men #13 due in February. What a badass picture this is. Cya folks.

blindbysins @ 2005-11-15T02:02:00

2005-11-15T07:11:25Z

Today has truly been a day of sorrow. I've been saddened all day. To Angie, I love you. You're my heart and soul baby and without you I wouldn't be who I am today. Thank you for being strong for me when I can not be. I love you so much my love.

It's amazing how much of an impact Eddie Guerrero has had in the world. After reading message boards since yesterday involving Eddie, and after watching Raw tonight, it is such a huge loss to everyone. May Eddie live on in our hearts for ones who knew of him, and how much he truly did care about every single person.

Once again my prayers go out to all of his family. His mother, siblings, uncle, aunt, nephew, wife, and his children.

Thank you to the WWE for having such an uplifting person brighten of the WWE. Eddie Guerrero will never be forgotten, and I'm glad WWE decided for Raw and Smackdown, to have a tribute show to Eddie.

P.S. The tribute video they made of him, was truly heart breaking.

P.S.S. It's amazing how one person you don't even know truly can touch your heart powerfully with such emotions. Thank the Lord.

R.I.P. Edduardo Gory Guerrero: 1967-2005

1967-2005: The day time stood still......

2005-11-14T04:46:16Z

Eddie Guerrero, there are no words that can say how powerful of an impact you've made on this world. You've entertained so many fans, you brought happiness, shame, love, bad times, good times, but you stuck through it all. If there was a way for you to go out, this was it.... on top of the world.

My prayers go out to the family of Guerrero. He left behind a wife and three kids. It brings me pride in saying that WWE(Vince Mcmahon) has told Eddie's family he'll be supporting them through the rest of their life. It's through times like these we realize how short life is, and how valuable it is all at once. Eddie was also a born again Christian, so there's no doubt he's in heaven right now.

Every time you hit the ring, you entertained like no other. With personality, excitement, and amazing wrestling ability, you were it. You'll be missed by many others, for the entertainment, for all your demons you conquered, through the joy you brought to people's smile. You helped us not to take things for granted. Rest in peace, Eddie Guerrero, and may you truly be in all of God's glory.

R.I.P.

He's an ALIEN!

2005-10-31T05:12:58Z

I GOT POWER! FINALLY!!!!!!!! SUCK ON THAT TREBEK! Ok, so I'm hyper as ever, but oh well. Power back home makes me happy. :)

P.S. I love Angie so freaking much.

P.S.S. I have now been infiltrated in my mind by Invader Zim! Obey Pastulio!

Hulk Smash!

2005-10-24T04:59:48Z

Man, what a weekend.

Friday consisted of working in the morning, and then hanging out at Jo's house with Ricky, Jo, Holly, Criff, and Vince, and a new person I never really knew much before....Molly! She was pretty cool. So we all drank some, and just hung out, pretty much had fun. Ricky and Molly played music very beautifully, and sometimes Holly sang about cats. Interesting indeed. Talked to Molly a bit, and she's a pretty cool person, found out some stuff about her, and it's funny, I remember going to school and always seeing her walk by at times, and you just never really think about seeing someone you know, and then hanging out with them at a later date. It's funny for sure. But moving on, we hung out until about 1, and then Ricky, Molly, and myself went to one of Molly's band member's house of a band she's in. Can't remember the name of it, but I think it's Light Your Fire. So we hung out there for awhile, and then Molly had to go home. So Ricky and I left at 4:20 and got home at 4:45ish.

Saturday ended up me going to Hallmark, and then to Movie Gallery. Nothing really noteworthy but it wasn't really a bad day.

Today/Sunday I awokened and boarded up the house. After that I went to Jo's, and then went to Halloween Horror Nights. VERY FUN! I loved it. I went on my first rollercoaster(The Hulk) and I even was all in the front! Woo! I loved it. :) Very cool rush. I also went on the Spider-Man 3d ride. Loved it. I'm such a comic geek. So like then we went in some haunted houses, and they were fun. Some kinda boring because it's hard to scare, but nonetheless fun. But sadly it rained, and with the hurricane and all lately, we left around 10:15 instead of midnight to get home. Just got home not so long ago, so I'm happy to be safe. I even got to talk to Angie and uber amount of time today. I loved it! She's so awesome, and I can see it in our eyes our love grows stronger and stronger every day. Through the thick and the thin we're always there for each other. So here's to you baby.... I love you.

Anyways, it's time to get ready for this hurricane, so see ya homies later!

Wha huh?!

2005-10-23T14:26:41Z

Slowly I'm starting to worry about this hurricane that plans on hitting us. They say it's supposed to hit Monday morning. I hope everything goes ok, and doesn't get screwed up. What's even happening today? I don't know. Anyways, I'm off like a bullet.

Lost and confused...

2005-10-17T03:46:13Z

I feel so lost for words right now.

I don't know what to even think.

Shaking so much just wanting for it all to get better.

I love you.

P.S. I'm probably not going to wrestling tomorrow. I'm in a mood where I really don't want to talk to anyone.

The ARROGANCE of you...

2005-10-16T04:36:55Z

Insert from House of M #7 where it is revealed that Pietro Maximoff(Magneto's son) is the one who is at blame for the alternate world created by Wanda Maximoff(Magnet's daughter), Magneto shows up to the scene after Pietro kills/knocks out everyone around the area, and yells at Pietro.

::Magneto is shown hovering himself because of his magnetism::

Magneto: WHAT HAVE YOU DONE IN MY NAME, BOY!!??

Pietro: YOU WERE GOING TO LET THEM KILL HER!!

Magneto: YOU USED HER AND YOU USED ME!! I WOULD NEVER HAVE ALLOWED THIS!!! YOU'VE DESTROYED EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE!!

::Magneto is creating a huge magnetic ball as he holds Pietro in place with his magnetism, he takes the huge ball and smashes it in his face, almost killing him, and he continues.::

Magneto: AND YOU USED MY NAME TO DO IT!! WHAT RIGHT?!! WHAT RIGHT?!!

::Magneto hits him with the gigantic ball one more time hard as hell in the face, literally decapitating his face. Wanda yells.::

Wanda: NOOOOOO! Brother.
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Maybe I'll finish it tomorrow. It's good, no doubt. Anyways, thats about it. I'll update about my weekend tomorrow. Until then, just lookie! My new icon! :)

This wasn't in the brochure...

2005-10-12T06:23:14Z

Insert from House of M#1 where Magneto pours his heart out to Charles Xavier.

Magneto(Erik): I can't help it, Charles. I put my children through hell because of what I BELIEVE. I destroyed whatever hope they ever had at a DECENT life...... because of what I believe. My war against the humans. And the truth is-- I waged my war against the humans and I LOST. So now I've lost the war AND I've lost my children. I was prepared to SACRIFICE them. ALL of it. I was. You KNOW that. But I-- I never imagined it would end up LIKE THIS. And that the sacrifice would be for NOTHING. There are plenty of people who think I probably DESERVE this.

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Short but sweet, I hope many people love it. It's powerful thinking about it, and there isn't anything I can really come up with for a lesson to learn from my usual journal ranting.

Moving on, today was perfect. I can't think of how it could've gone better. I awoke to the phone ringing, and while I missed it, it was Angie. I called her back. You have no idea how great it was to wake up to hearing her lovely voice. It simply made my day. I ended up thinking about her all day, and texted her like crazy(she loved it, hehe). I'm finding myself missing her as usual, but lately it feels it's like that times a zillion. I love her so.... and I also miss her like crazy. I love you, and you know what made this day even better? Getting to talk with her at night as well. I can sleep comfortably knowing my baby is ok, and knowing we got to talk more about up-to-date things. I love you baby, and my heart is all yours love. I thought of the perfect thing to say, and it's oh so true. Angie baby, this morning, today, I woke up to love. Thank you. :)

Anyways, that's it for tonight. Short once again, but it'll get longer like my past posts. Today was more of a relaxing, peaceful day, and I loved it. Good news galore. So until next time.... "You shall lick my face and I shall lick your snout!"

P.S. I'm working 3:30-10 at Movie Gallery for anyone who cares. I'll update tomorrow on how my day goes. :)

I think so much about you...

2005-10-11T04:06:23Z

Man, today is a day that isn't even worth a comic book related post. It's been a long day, and so hard on my heart and soul.

I awoke, and must've apparently been very out of it because I kept arguing with my mom that I had to work this morning so I didn't have to get up tomorrow, saying how I can sleep in cause I work at night tomorrow, and work in the morning today. Very confusing, but interesting.

Work at Movie Gallery turned out ok. Kinda boring, but I kept busy. I just didnt feel like doing my training today, though I did learn to shift a wall. Kick ass if I say so myself.

After work Ricky and I talked for a few, and then I called Angie. It was tough, and things are so hard at times, I wish I could give her the world, just to do anything to have a smile on her face. She means so much to me and even though we had a hard time today Angie, I love you. I truly love you with all my soul, all my heart. We cried our hearts out for one another, and I'm assured that no matter how hard this is, if we keep trying hard, and dealing with what we've been dealt at this point, within time everything will get better. I love you and would do literally anything for you my love.

In further news, as much as I love helping people out, I feel ackwards being stuck in the middle of something. I won't say what, but I just don't like how things are turning out. That's what I have to say and I hope you understand.

But yes, this day has been filled with heartache and lots of thinking.

In other news, I felt sick after eating earlier. I think it was the chinese food but who knows. I laid down for a good hour, and had to make myself eat something.

I miss Angie a lot, and while wrestling was amazing and a big step up as of late, I just felt like wanting to talk to Angie. She said she was going to bed early, but I wasn't too sure, and I was afraid her mom would be home, but I called anyways. She woke up cause of me, stupid, I should've realized, but I miss her so badly. All I want to do is just be held in her arms.....

It's all I want.

I love you.